To Hell and (not quite) Back

dear dear. a night spent mostly awake trapped between misery and horror and occasional sleep filled with nightmares. nightmares were better than the waking as moments of joy were truly lovely before being cut short by social and structural boundaries. overall i felt my soul being sucked out of me. a lonely event now, my third attempt at leaving bed and staying afloat, i'm going to wander the apartment contemplating the beautiful and curious curios and see if i can make contact with the universe. for the day i will be but an observer on planet earth.